Hike to Live
As the name of this website suggests, I hike for reasons atypical to most.
I left for the PCT with full intent to hike the entire trail, knowing in the back of my mind that returning home early was a definite possibility.
The circumstances under which I would return revolved around the fact that my wife was *very* pregnant and would be giving birth while I was on trail.
I wasn’t present for the birth of our child, mainly because of some serious doubts I had about whether or not I would be able to connect with our daughter.
I left home because I was contemplating suicide. After 72 days on trail I was able to return home.
1,600 miles in, I was able to make the decision to return home, mentally come to terms with the fact that it was the right thing to do, and successfully maintain some semblance of balance, at least in terms of what’s normal for us, upon return.
This is why I hike. I cannot put my finger on *exactly why* it helps, but suffice to say, leaving home and being out including the in the wilderness for long stretches of time enables me and my family to better manage our lives post-trauma.
I will be returning to the trail in the spring to finish the last 1,000 miles of Southern California.
I hope you join me.